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This, this is on my nightstand. Now.
This weekend I’ll be hitting the open road for a training ride and the forest for a training run. In between I’ll be spending time with friends and tucking in to read…
I’m always transformed when I read Brene Brown’s amazing work. Laugh. Cry. Work. Love. Celebrate. Then more work.
You go girl!
To think we can do anything still rocks my mind some days. Yet as I write that sentence a gremlin of a comparison of yesterday, today and yes, even the possibilities of tomorrow start to sneak up.
Once that train has been stopped from leaving the station I remind myself that it’s up to me to decide what’s important. What’s of value to me. To decide what it is that I can change. To take the steps to change what is worth changing.
To not compare myself with narratives that no longer serve. I realize that when I stop the comparison train I trust more. Love more. See more. Am more.
I believe this applies to everyone.
This life is about a journey. One step, one action at at time. Not the one others are on. The one you are on. It’s this life. This now that should be savored, lived.
It’s a journey that – when lived wholeheartedly – manifests from heart, with joy.
From this, anything is possible.
“Man should forget his anger before he lies down for sleep.” Mahatma Gandhi
Stepping into a life that you didn’t expect can be brutally unmooring. I’m learning to do and be alone, not with. To build a new blueprint for This Life.
Learning to form new words, thoughts. Actions. Draw a line. Set boundaries. Write a word. Ride the open road. Create. Meditate. Hike. Beach. Do new things. Rediscover old. Do things that fill my soul, heart. Sometimes not. Readjust. Explore. Repeat.
I’m learning to shift the energy of raw emotions – grief, anger, gratitude and joy to a place and space of usefulness.To not dwell in the if only. To manifest the what if, the why not. To turn life on its head.
I’m exploring and redefining the meaning of Family. My way. Small, meaningful steps. It’s about Forgiveness. Unconditional love. Of self, others.
It’s not to everyone’s liking. That’s OK. It’s not about them. It’s about me. What feels authentic to me. To do the work that works for me. I’ve discovered this last year that life’s to short to toss away friendship, love, family.
It’s hard F’n work forgiveness and unconditional love. It’s a practice. Daily.
It’s about owning it. Living it. Breathing it. Building it.
To not do, means to not grow. Not an option.
I choose to step into, not away.
Some days thoughts tumble round and round. I sit with the noise of it. With spaces of silence between.
Learning to sit with, be.
Learning to love, me.
Learning with open heart, see.
Learning to let go, be.
Learning courage, grace.
Activating spirit, strength.
Activating thought, action.
Rediscovering family, love.
Rediscovering creativity, heart.
Rediscovering the road, joy.
Connecting with nature, soul.
Connecting with sound, peace.
Connecting with silence, growth.
Connecting with others, self.
Loving. Being. Giving. Asking, Seeing.