Visibility & Playing Big

Sauvie Island, Portland, OR — July 19, 2020

“Playing big doesn’t come from working more, pushing harder, or finding confidence. It comes from listening to the most powerful and secure part of you.” Tara Mohr

Before the pandemic, I felt that showing up and being visible was sharing my story and journey more publicly. I’ve backed off a little. My why, how, and what is evolving. Yet, I also believe sharing stories is important. The more stories we hear, read, and see about women micro-businesses and entrepreneurship as a second, third or fourth act, can help show us the way forward and inspire us

Yet, what I knew as normal before the pandemic has been upended. I find myself in a transition state where joy, sadness, hope, grief, and a myriad of other emotions can (and do) happen. All in one day or over many. Not my normal state of being. And they are happening while I work to reimagine, plan, and write about what that new normal looks like. To understand that sometimes I can play too big too soon. That’s OK. That it’s also OK to step back and let that go. It’s hard. It’s good. It’s what is.

In the process...
I’m deepening and re-discovering friendships.
I’m learning to fall, fail, and get back up. Dust myself off and have another go.
I’m learning to integrate all of me into a whole.

I’m learning that…
I’m a maker and entrepreneur who loves to do, mentor, and teach others.
I’m talented at marketing, strategy, business, and content.
I’m talented at designing, drafting, knitting, painting, and macrame. (Yep, macrame…)
I have a gift of writing - in telling and editing stories. Others and mine.
I’m an athlete who loves the outdoors.

I’m learning to...
Write and make.
Develop a business where story, content, and strategy are crisp, clear, and heart-centered. A must in today’s over-communicated world.
Stop compartmentalizing my life and embrace all aspects of my life into an integrated life. That when I do - I’m at my most grounded and living in my values of courage and integrity.
Stand in my voice and needs, not others.
Be in the power of me first in order to be my best for myself and others.
Shift into the power of my wisdom.
Know my knowing.

I have no idea where I will land.
It’s scary as all get out.
It’s liberating as hell.
I’m working to play big in this next chapter, but for now - a little more quietly as I rework a life plan and a strategy to what that looks like.

You?